Today is an important day for me although quite frankly, nothing special happened today and there is nothing important scribbled on the calendar for today. No, today is important to me because it just happens to be the day before tomorrow and tomorrow is actually a day that is marked on the calendar. Not because I have a doctor’s appointment or a massage scheduled, although I do actually have a massage scheduled and I really can’t wait until the scheduled time so I can drift away in total relaxation for an hour or so. Tomorrow is special because it just happens to be the first day of my fight against the fat. That’s right, the fight against the fat.
I’ve been overweight since late 2009 and as each new year passes and weight loss vows are taken at midnight, I find myself weighing more and wearing a larger size than the year before. Each month, I find myself trying to avoid the mirror as well as people more and more. I just don’t like to be around people because I am so self-conscious of my appearance now.
On September 2, 2015, I stopped smoking. I was a smoker for more than 20 years and I tried many times to quit but every time I did, I always started back within a month or two. I was only successful with not smoking when I was pregnant with my kids and during those pregnancies, I stopped smoking the day I found out I was pregnant and I stayed smoke-free until after I had my children. For some reason, I started smoking again within a few weeks or a month of my children being born. I mention this because for the last couple of years, I used smoking as an excuse to not work out. I was actually scared of working out because I was afraid that I would have a heart attack because I smoked.
On September 30. 2015 I started working out and I made a complete change in what I eat. While I seldom ever ate anything that was fried, I stopped eating all fried foods as well as bread and comfort foods such as macaroni and cheese, mashed potatoes and others. I started eating fresh fruits and raw veggies as well as steamed vegetables and every so often, chicken or tuna in my salad at lunch. I also ate Nutrisystem meals for a month or so but those got really boring and I didn’t like the preservatives that were in them.
From September 30 until Thanksgiving Day, I lost 30 pounds. That was great! I was so excited as well as proud of myself for dropping the weight by eating healthy and working out. Even better than the 30 pounds, I dropped 4 clothing sizes as well. Nothing could have been better than to lose the weight and finally be a smaller size in less than 60 days. On Thanksgiving, my children and I went to my parents for dinner and I was careful with my food that day. I portioned everything out and I stayed away from the breads, comfort foods and desserts. I was proud of myself.\
Thanksgiving night, I was tired from being out all day and I skipped my nightly workout. The next day, I skipped another day of working out and that continued until, well, now. I’ve not lost any more weight and I have put back on nearly 10 pounds of the 30 I had already lost. I don’t know what happened to cause me to stop working out like I was, but I stopped and I have to get started back again.
I walk on the treadmill at home and I ride a stationary bike, but I haven’t been exactly consistent with these things and I know that I need to be. I’ve stayed pretty true to the diet change although this past weekend I spent most of the weekend shopping with the kids and we ended up eating out for lunch and dinner every day.
I decided to write a blog about my weight loss journey and believe me, I will be writing about everything that comes to my mind while I’m working on my body and my life. The good, the bad and the ugly and everything in between will be included. If I can make you laugh or cry or inspire you to be a better you, then I hope you enjoy what I write.
For me, this is something that is not going to be easy to write about. I’m an antisocial person and I most definitely don’t like people knowing that I need to lose weight. Sure, there are many that see me and they know, but for the thousands that don’t know me in person, I have been very content with the thin face selfies and no body pics where no one could see that I needed to lose weight.
While I won’t be posting any pictures just yet, I will post them later on when I start feeling a little more confident about myself.
I met with a personal trainer last week and decided to move forward and hire him to train me. I’ll write more about the trainer as things progress. Hopefully, he will be able to push me and really help me get where I need to be physically. I have roughly 100 pounds to lose and many inches and tomorrow starts the beginning of a new me, or should I say, a healthier and smaller and more muscular me. My goal is to lose the weight and be in the right shape physically by December. I also want to be able to run a 5K with my daughter in May, although I think that may be too soon, it may be plausible depending on just how hard this trainer works me out.
As for tonight, I’m getting ready to hop on the treadmill and watch a little television while I walk. Maybe I’ll last an hour and maybe I won’t, but the great thing about it is, I am walking towards a new me.
You can check back after tomorrow (Monday, April 11) to find out how my first session with the personal trainer went. I’m sure I’ll have plenty to say about it!